I Didn’t Want to Do It

What teenage girl hasn’t begged God, “I know I have done wrong and have no right to ask this, but please don’t let my mother find out!” Certainly I had many times. But 15 years into adulthood, what was God asking of me? I’d been invited to speak at a church on the topic of my choice, but God was calling me to share the testimony of my tumultuous, sin-laden teen years. Why make me do this in front of several hundred women? It was going to be painful. I probably wouldn’t be invited back. But worst of all, my mom’s best friend asked to accompany me to the event. Oh, the humiliation!

I didn’t want to do it. Talking about one’s sin and failures is never fun, but I had to believe that God had a purpose. On the evening of the event, I took the stage and told my story. Some women wept. Some were flabbergasted. Some nervously nodded on their way out the door, but a few stood in line to weep with me over their daughters’ trials. It was in these intermingled tears that I witnessed how God blesses obedience. And praise God—Mom’s friend and I both survived.

Author and speaker Kimberly Sowell calls women to live beyond themselves and surrender their lives fully to Christ.

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